What can I say.. Yesterday was a day of ripping apart blocks.. Making log cabin quilts and got lost in sewing stacks of them. One got really crazy.. Ripped instead of making a new one.. Only have 14 center panels for each block.. It is getting there.. I have 28 blocks but want to make flying geese to add in and some star blocks to scatter around..
Depression hangs on like a bat sleeping.. Sometimes I wish for it to fly away.. Others .. it is just there.. My Easter loaf of bread and a double flowered dog wood taken at Aldridge Garden Hoover, AL on a visit a couple of weeks ago.. Nice garden with paved paths and a trail around their dammed pond.. Quiet pretty place to be.. Closed today...

So what can I say.. These are the latest finishes. I am designing an outdoor .. wild animal quilt for a friend's rustic home.. It will be a guy quilt..
But, it is getting harder to use quilting as an escape from this life that I am not happy in. I would like to go live by myself somewhere away from my family.. Possibility of anything changing.. NOT..
No control over my own life.. Really sucks. I am really in a down and dark place this week..

April 3rd, 2011.. Boy how the time has flown by.. I started this blue and green 9 patch in February and finished it April 1 officially .. It grew as I made blocks.. Now I'm off to use some really old fabric for another cuddle quilt.. Quilt show is happening in June. Not sure if I will show this quilt or not.. Have a week to decide..
The problem is 40 miles to deliver it and 40 miles to pick it up two days later.. Have to think about that for sure.. All this guild stuff may be too much for me.. think'n..
Many things have happen since February.. Son's ex girl friend committed suicide. and he tried to revive her obviously not successful. Now there are two little boys without their mom.. So sad for sure.. Her mother is stepping up, but overwhelmed for sure..
Then my dd and sil are moving to Washington state from Florida.. It will be very hard to travel and see them.. Fibro world will be a challenge and the cost..Life changes and we all have to make changes.. not always easily or maybe reluctantly ...