Cold, cold, cold.. What can I say.. Lost my mojo for sewing.. Have piles of fabric and project all around . Jessie had knee surgery on Tuesday.. It is hard.. She doesn't want to do much at all.. Going out seems to be the hardest..How do I put a sock on her leg.. I don't have a sock big enough.. maybe a tube for her leg.. Such a little leg of ham there.. Poor baby..

No sewing these past few days, but have been enjoying the fall color.. I think at times of packing all the quilting and sewing stuff up and either storing in the basement or dumping it on good will.. I sure there are quild members who would go through it like scavengers looking for a good deal.. It's just being depressed and having the kids come in town and see my piles of fabric and projects started and not really knowing where I belong in this house.. The sun set a few days back was so beautiful.. And had a great meal at City Cafe Helena.. Great food .. I can't remember the last time I cleaned my plate and didn't take a to go box with me. Their food temped me to finish the whole thing and have peach cobbler, too.. Wow!.. I will try to finish the little blue Santa today.. and work on two heart placemats.. That would be a good accomplishment for where I am.. I did cut out a disappearing 9 patch in Christmas fabric and it will be more than scrappy.. Lost in design I think.. That's it for now.. Have a good day..

Blogger didn't post my photo's here is try two..

My wonderful large cup of fat free latte for breakfast. My new cat ruler will turn blue cat into a pillow.. Blue Santa is a gift for a friend .. Not the mouse.. She has to have a mouse in everything..LOL.. Enjoy and have a great dayll..

So here is what I've been working on this past week.. Little projects for gifts .. and the wonderful sunset tonight.. It seems warmer and was a wonderful day.. Went to Birmingham Quilt Guild meeting.. Always fun and such wonderful show and tell.. A real treat to hear Bonnie Browning.. I am surprised that my quilts ever turn out .. just plan luck I guess. Or what you don't know can't hurt you me.. ... I don't need perfect quilts they are just what i do to maintain my sanity.. It's where I go for peace and joy.. I enjoy doing donation quilts and will continue..

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Times has fallen back and so has the leaves.. I have several small projects going with out pictures.. It is cold for my southern blood.. But have collect wool sweaters, fleece jackets and tops.. and fleece socks that I make which I love.. Need to make some more.. Repairing a fleece jacket that a friend made that she had put a flannel lining in.. It made it too clumsy.. So this will work out well.. Will repair my hubby's leather coat lining, too.. Pics are random stuff from this past week.. Off to cut out fabric for a queen size quilt which seems to be the largest size I can handle.. Maybe another cuddle quilt will come along too..

No quilting these two weeks.. Visiting Florida.. Did make a wacky little cat and plan to make some more.. But will need to make a little wall hanging form them. Florida has been wonderful for my spirit.. Visiting Mom was good. She is keeping here spirits positive and seems happy. Love her dearly.. Wish I could have stayed longer and hugged her more.. Didn't get to dad's grave site ....

Random quilts .. Kaniel's blue quilt at the side here.. Top is winter inspired quilt. hand quilting piece I loved .. And two cuddle quilts.. or inspired cuddle quilts..

have a good day.. Off to quilt..

It is a beautiful day on the crest. I dug out the old sewing machine and had no problem free motioning the border.. Problem being that I can not seem to set up the pfaff to do this.. But the old machine just chugs along.. So back to finishing the binding and preparing for some company for dinner tonight..

More new quilts .. I've been sewing and sewing.. Re arranged the livingroom and quilting has taken over the dinning room.. Not sure where this is going.. Going to Florida to see my family and friends.. And mostly to see the last launch of Discovery..Saw the first and many in between. This will be sad.. Where will we go as a nation after we don't go to space in our own vehicle.. Strange to see the country changing..

So there is the finished flower quilt made from blocks done at a quilt group back in 2006.. I squared up all the blocks and gave in to I'm not perfect.. The wild flower thing was using scraps to made a donation quilt.. Little neck bag ..Love using it.. And the collection of thread found while digging for thread for a the last project that has been laying around here .. Kaniel quilt will be pictured when it is done.. Some time this week.. I may take it to quild even though it is not perfect... He'll love it.. Off to quilt..more.. Calmness inside me today..

Latest finish.. What can I say.. There is so much to do and so little time.. Under the weather from flu shot.. or maybe the crappy allergies... This makes me feel happy even though it is not perfect. I can remember all the quazee quilt group members .. Each flower was different size so I squared them up and did the best I could.. Turned out pretty good if I say so myself..

Two cuddle quilts for donation to the Birmingham Quilt Guild.. They require that you make up one of their cuddle quilt in a bag. It has everything.. The colors are funky using up donation fabric. And then I made a quilt using up scraps.. so of which were donated to me by my quilting friends who were throwing them out.. The cats is BQG and the logs are my scraps.. I've got another donation quilt in the works too..

It is finally raining here in Birmingham.. I think we are something like 5 to 6 inches low in water.. Fire band in effect.. This rain will help.. The lake that I walk around is so low that nothing is spilling out of any of the spillways. The sides are muddy and stinky..

Off to sew today.. Missing my quilt group in Florida..

I need discipline in my life.. Discipline to be more organized. Discipline to clean every day. Discipline to sew productively every day. Discipline to write every day. Discipline to find the good in every day. Discipline to loss weigh. Lots of challenges. Can I accomplish any of them. I'm hitting the kitchen this morning I think.. After doing a binding on a quilt..

I don't know how to smile.. how sad is that.. I have gone through 62 years and have no clue how to smile.. I may smile unintentionally.. But ask me to smile and I haven't got a clue. Now ask me to cry and I might be able to do that.. But, smile..
How do I learn to smile... My new project.. To smile more .. Even if it hurts..

Quilt pictures to come later.. My machine quilting stinks.. I can't seem to stop breaking top thread.. Do I move too quickly.. Do I use the wrong needle.. A work in progress..
Maybe my new sewing table will work.. It has it's flaws, but will work with it for now.. May design my own.. Another work in progress..

Made two table runners and gave one away. New Orleans inspired.
Quilt picture is from Birmingham Quilt Guild meeting.. I forgot who did it. But it is intense for sure .. many hours of piece. She did a prize quilt for sure.. The men on my roof.. Joy of new roof and the feeling of being dry.. Safe that is a work in progress for sure..

It's good to know that no one reads my blog.. So if you should read it someday.. Be forewarned that I'm open and some of the things I may say.. I wouldn't have told you any way..

My ear infection seems to be chronic.. I am now wondering if the antibiotics don't get rid of it ever complete.. Could it be cancer in my ear.. Sure it could. How do I deal with this.. I watched a person die from ear cancer once.. It was not pretty. The swelling was terrible. I never understood how it happened or how no one could off him a bit of comfort or help. In the end he was living off a food tube and pain killers.. Was I kind enough.. I don't know I was too young to understand.. And now I'm too scared for .. knowing.. But, then I don't understand this world now any better after all these years..

I am so boxed in right now.. I am stuck here living with a husband I really do not know.. Do not know who he is anymore.. And I am soo tired of living poor.. Poor in hope.. Poor in spirit.. Poor in joy.. It is not about the financial situation.. It is the poor of not caring about another no even their well being.. Care and comfort.. not here.. Self centered and self absorbed..

I feel paralyzed ... unable to get settled here in this new location.. He won't let me organize it the way I would like. I can't purchase anything for this home.. It feels so shabby and for sure not shabby ... chic... But old and broken down and ignored and beige... I want to live in a colorful place with tons of color and light and joy.. This is killing me.. And it may very well be killing me.. You get down and you start looking for the end.. I will not be scared.. If I do this again.. Will I remember to make different choices.. Choices that would make me happy and NOT the choices that made for east security. IT sure hasn't been easy.. It hurts a whole lot.. It makes me cry and I wasn't a crier.. It makes me feel sooo sad and lonely.. And I wasn't a lonely person... I have always tried to be the brave and strong one..

Can I throw something..Can I throw lots out.. What if I died tomorrow ... do I want my children throwing it all away when I could have done this,too..

I need to get back to throwing 50 things out a week.. IT always makes me feel better..
Off to throw..

I'm in pain today and yesterday and the day before that.. Went to the doctor and the doctor said.. sinus infection and on Avelox.. Once a day.. Felt better this morning, but not so now. For some reason my left ear is still unhappy. Then my brain says.. maybe it is cancer and no infection.. maybe it's something I should have complained about earlier..or followed up with earlier.. the I say just leave it up to God.. He will walk me though what ever this is and let the evil thoughts get out of my head.. Be patient and relax and sew.. Keep sewing..
Here are the latest project I think.. and cookies. To finding inner peace or piece?

It is just a bitchy day.. I want to scream. Who would hear. Would it matter at all.. no one would hear and it wouldn't matter at all..I'm just bummed out at my husband who rsvp-ed for one to his niece's wedding.. The one being him.. He really wasn't going to tell me either.. How nice is that.. so I stay home with the dogs.. :(
Really I'd rather be home alone with out him than having him here. He brings sooo much tension. There are so many rules in his life. How things have to be done.. When you have to eat .. How much or little you can eat.. How you tie your shoes.. How much food you have in the refrigerator ... How you hang a shirt on a hanger.. How you put in a screw.. How you clean a bath tub.. How you mow the lawn.. How you clean up shit.. On and on and on and on it goes..

And in the end ... does any of this shit really matter.. No put your shirt on inside out who cares.. Where a purple shirt with red pants and go to wal mart and get posted on the web. Who the heck cares.. ( I haven't done that... I wear the same old stuff.. light colored shirts and dark colored pants ..) My uniform.. All bought from Goodwill and Salvation Army. Why because mister cheap pants is soo tight with his green.. He will be hold a dollar bill in his hand as he is buried..

But this was also supposed to be where I posted pics of my quilting.. Here are the latest.. Never know where they will be posted.. It's okay with me.. It's a rainy day here and I have messed up my bp med.. not the oil spill that is a whole other matter.. Folks oil just doesn't go away.. You hate and you love it.. Drive baby drive.. Burn it.. But who knows where it really comes from or even cares.. Okay enough of the soap box for today.. maybe..

The progression of the Tee Shirt quilt.. It took 6 days to complete. I did nothing else but work on it and then delivered it today..
Dr Rachael Hudson was surprised. She seemed to like it and now I have $180 credit at the vets. Nice barter.. She is happy I hope and I will use that credit up having all these pets. Everyone of which seem okay right now. It's beastly hot here and no relief in sight. There is a tropical depression a brewing in the Caribbean Islands. Let us hope it doesn't hit the Gulf too badly. They sure need a break.

I have felt terrible this last week. But can't figure out why. Have had shotting pain in my right arm.. Pain in my legs.. Pain in my hips.. Sewing pain.. Not sure.. With this quilt delivered .. for some reason my pain seems a little less today.. Connection.. or what ever has been ailing me is healing it's way ... away.. Thank goodness for that.. I am not much for going to doctors anymore.. having been a nurse.. I have seen enough of them.. I don't think that there is really much care out there.. It is more about money.. Number of clients they can see in a day.. How much they take to the bank. I think the "drug company's " are the same.. How many Rx's can the doctors write for them.. How many pills can they sell.. I've lost too many friends in the last three years. What did medicine do for them.. Very little .. Delays in treatment.. No cures. Pain and suffering.. Boy, does that all sound depressing..
I'm just going to muddle along here as best I can till the end.. God's got that plan not me.. So off to cook some supper .. Lima beans, rice and a couple of scrambled eggs..Didn't say I was a great cook.. Heat index at 104.. who would want to cook...

Working on T shirt quilt.. finally.. Will post pictures later.. I've put this project off long enough. It's a for pay quilt.. So I should get it done and out of here... We'll see how this goes..

Life is crazy week.. When to visit daughter.. Only got to go grocery shopping one time.. Never left her house.. Busy helping watch children.. Not made about that.. Mad that husband was such a pain.. Don't spend any money.. What are you think'n.. Don't buy anything. You are fat.. You are lazy.. Crap .. You'd be fat too if you couldn't do any of the things you used to love to do.. But after 35 years I can't walk any where.. I have no income.. No health and no where to go..
So I will go quilt with my scraps.
Latest completion .. Off to work on a quilted bag.. And start the t-shirt quilt..

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Pictures of the dress I finished this week.. Finished quilting the bright quilt.. It needs a name.. Working on a scrapy thing for donation. Project in works. And the dogs soo tired after a bath. They are still tired 20 hours later. French Fry refused to go for a walk this morning. His time may be drawing near. It will be so hard. Carol my dear friend called.. Her husband is so jealous of our phone calls. How sad. He has such a wonderful woman for a wife. Yet, he taunts her with nasty words all the time. I'm going to throw you and your dad out of the house.. You have til 5 pm to do what I want or your out of here. She is so sweet.. cooks gourmet meals for him. does laundry, cleans, bows to him.. But, nothing she does for him is seen in his eyes.. Always his way or the highway.. She takes such good care of her whole family.. Men.. who can really understand them
My dear husband has learned say those kind of things to me and I'd be out the door running in the opposite direction and filing papers .. Life is too short to be walked on..
Sometimes when my fibro world or what ever it is that is really wrong with me is acting up, I just don't know how much longer to be here.. Get really tired of the pain.. Try to keep a positive view but sometimes very hard to do.. Off to finish binding on Quilt..